On the day of his daughter's birthday, Brian restages memories that haunt him—memories in which his family were not yet fish.

“My Family are Fish” was inspired by a chapter in William Faulkner’s As I Lay Dying wherein a child whose mother has passed away says, “My mother is a fish.” We wanted to make a film that addresses the strangeness of death— it's incompatibility with our understanding of the world and, through that,  why it can be so hard to move on from it. 
Both the co-director, one of my best friends Maya, and I have experienced loss. We have dealt with grief that comes with no instructions; the guilt and isolation of moving on with our lives when someone we have loved is gone forever. Like our character Brian, we have been left with with the dilemma of honoring someone’s memory without becoming obsessed with it—without letting it take over our lives, no matter how consuming it can be. We made this film in hopes of addressing how profoundly odd and unshakable that experience is. We hope that watching Brian go through the motions of grief, holding so tightly to all he has lost, and ultimately realizing he must let go, is as validating to our viewers as it was to us.


Film
17min 46sec
Colorado Springs, CO
2024

director

Pema Baldwin
Maya Rajan

writer


Pema Baldwin
Maya Rajan

director of photography


Marco Toro

cast
Brian Landis Folkins as “Brian”
Karen Roybal as “Eleanore”
Summer Montoya as “Summer”

1st assistant camera


Matt Nesselrodt

gaffer
Ben Greenly

production sound mixer
Haley Wright
production assistant
Toby Ellingwood

project supervisor
Arom Choi
equipment supervisor
Kevin Beechwood
assistant director
Erin Choi

editor

Pema Baldwin
Maya Rajan

sound mixer

Pema Baldwin
Maya Rajan

colorist
Brian de Herrera-Schnering
stunt double
Rowan Berridge
title design
James Blue
© 2024 Pema Baldwin